Congratulations... You've discovered the secret website.

Are you an old fan? An old enemy? A stranger passing by? None of that matters, because it's not gonna change the fact that Sonic4 is dead for real.

It's difficult for me to say these, but it's a necessity. I don't expect you to trust my word, but this is the hidden reality of what has happened.

So, as you may know, Sonic4 Test Records was closed a while ago. NEVER SEE ME AGAIN was his last single, and that was a really rough way to put an end. It was very abrupt and angry. Sonic4 ran away and he was never seen again. He unfriended everyone and destroyed his website so he had no way to go back. I don't condone his recent hateful actions at all, but that was what he chose to do.

At this point, you are probably saying: "Why are you referring to yourself from a third person as if you're someone pretending that you died?"

You're right. Maybe you believe me, maybe you don't, but I'm aimless and lost. I don't know who I am anymore.

Some might know me as saintkoishi, because that was what I rebranded all of my accounts to. The name Sonic4 isn't used anymore, because Sonic4 is dead. That's right. What used to be my true self is dead, and I changed for the better. saintkoishi is not a name change, it's a soul change.

I advocate for positivity now. It's not an act, it's how I am. Believe me when I say this, but you become the person you want to be. I already talked about everything in the LOVE EVERYONE album page, so go read that if you're curious and have the time to. I meant everything I said there.

Back to our main topic... Many old friends might feel like I'm putting on an act, but that's not true. I am a completely different person now. Most of the time, I'm a better person, like I said. I'm happy, positive, affectionate, but I'm also scared because I can't define "myself" anymore. I'm someone else who kept his memories and items. I don't feel the same, I don't talk the same, I don't have the same interests and skills, I don't know how to be in his shoes and carry on the legacy he left behind. Maintaining the Sonic4 Test Records website is easy because I only have to update aytracker.

Memories Always Endure The Passage on the other hand, that's where it gets tricky. Don't get me wrong, I love the music in there, but I don't know if I'll feel comfortable releasing new albums when I'm not him. The Protagonist is already in its final stretch, but if those last two albums were completed sometime in 2026, it would be like Mozart's requirem. An unfinished piece of music that was later completed after his death, which is even more depressing. His memories will live on forever through the music he created.

That's kind of why I registered a new domain for Memories Always Endure The Passage. I might use it in the future in case I have to release new music. I don't want to update sonic4.neocities.org as a keepsake. That's also why I don't update sonic4.bandcamp.com, because the albums I released recently have nothing to do with Sonic4. There's no point in attributing new releases to a dead person. I'm so sorry for everything.

I have no name to go by. I don't refer to myself as saintkoishi because it's just a name on a screen. It's just a placeholder name for the internet. It used to define me until I started working on newhifuuclub. Now, I'm bringing this up because it became my main project. Unlike butcher music, broken transmission is pleasant to listen to. Not just that, but, it had a submliminal story that we were trying to uncover. I don't want to talk about it.

You came all the way here an explanation, but I'm sorry that I'm deliberately gatekeeping information. It might be too difficult for you to figure things out on your own, right? Give it a try. Go to new hifuu club, listen to everything, and try to make meaning of it. I'll give you a hint: It's about the future.

And that's where I am today. I don't know what the future has for me, but one of those futures were promised by newhifuuclub. There's a high chance that I'm in that timeline, and the things that were promised will actually happen at some point. That's what scares me. It's my dream, but I can't afford for some things to change. They say "Ignorance is bliss" and they were right. I wish I could unlearn everything about NHC. It's too much for me.

I hope to see you next time. Until then, peace out.

- saintkoishi